Hey edaj, welcome to the Beyond Blue forums. We're glad you found you're way here.
We're so sorry to hear you feel this way about yourself, we can imagine these thoughts would have you feeling very drained and depressed. We know it might not seem like it right now but things can get better and you won't always feel like this.
If you feel up to it, you might like to get in touch with Kids Help Line.
They are a confidential and anonymous, telephone and online counselling service specifically for young people aged between 5 and 25.
We’d also encourage you to reach out to our Support Service. We’re available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport. One of our professional mental health counsellors at our Support Service will give you support and point you in the right direction for help in your area.
Keep checking back in and let us know how you are going when you feel up to it.