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Topic: Things suck

3 posts, 0 answered
  1. Depressed_meme
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    29 January 2019

    I’ve had depression and anxiety for nearly 8 years now and it never seems to get better. I pretty much never want to be here except for the days where I get almost a manic feeling and happy for no reason like I’m on a high, only to crash and burn soon after. (Hypomania it seems)

    I went off antidepressants recently as I just wanted to bloody remember what it felt like to not have a dry mouth, feel like a zombie and other issues these meds cause.

    At first I felt great and now life is unbearable yet again and I can’t cope with anything. My anxiety is so crippling and my depression is so bad that I never leave the house because I don’t have true energy and I feel like I’m becoming psychotic, overanalysing every irrelevant detail and magnifying it 1000 times in my head and get so paranoid I assume everyone hates me despite there being no actual proof of it.

    To top it off, I can’t find a job or move out and my friend recently passed from suicide.

    I know 98% of what I think is irrational but I can’t stop it. So tomorrow I’m getting a psychiatrist referral so I can try and end this.

  2. white knight
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    29 January 2019 in reply to Depressed_meme

    Hi, welcome

    A referral is a very intelligent move that we dont read about often. Well done with your attitude.

    There can be a light at the end of the tunnel. You might need to be a little more proactive and positive in your frame of mind.

    Medication tweeking/change can be discussed with your psych.

    In the meantime please read the first post of the following threads, use Google

    Beyondblue Topic medication is a whirlpool

    Beyondblue Topic what lifes like at the end of the tunnel

    Beyondblue Topic depression, a ship on the high seas

    Beyondblue Topic be radical

    TonyWK

  3. romantic_thi3f
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    4 February 2019 in reply to Depressed_meme

    Hi Depressed_meme,

    Welcome to the forums and thanks for being here.

    I just saw your post and I realise that it's probably been just about a week since you wrote in - how did you get on with the psychiatrist referral?

    I'm really sorry that you're going through this, but at the same time I was so wrapped to hear that you know your thoughts are irrational and working to arrange that referral. That's a big sign of hope and strength, and certainly not an easy thing to find when you're wrapped up in depression and anxiety!

    I wonder too if you've thought about trying a different medication? How long has it been since you stopped - did you taper off or go cold turkey? That in itself can make a big difference to your mood.

    Hope that you can find the help that you need.