I am so very proud of you for reaching out, you have some to a really safe place to get some support and to get some comfort at this time. No one is going to judge you here, just care for you. I can hear how frightened you are and I am so pleased you are here, reaching out for help, it is never too late and now is the time for you, to pack a bag and to take yourself out of that situation and that environment where drugs are accessible.
Firstly I am really disappointed that someone older is encouraging a person who is 17 years old to welcome this lifestyle and to leave the home that you were living at with your dad. I am wondering what the situation is with your dad and if you can reach out to him at this time? I know that is probably really hard and you perhaps may feel guilt and shame by calling him but I feel like you can really use his support right now.
The other thing you could do is call the Kids Helpline on 1800 55 1800 and talk to one of the amazing people there who can provide some support to you at this time, they are so very kind and supportive too. I also want to echo what Sophie has said and if you are in danger right now to please call 000 and get an ambulance to come to you. I know you posted this awhile ago and I hope you are safe.
There is help available for you Shavon to get yourself out of this house and out of this environment and to start today, to protect your mental health as well as your physical health and your safety too. It is never to late to dump this lifestyle to really ensure that you don't become an addict and that these drugs don't harm you.
I can hear that you are feeling suicidal as hell, this must be so very frightening so please use the numbers to call for some help or even check in to emergency at your local hospital, you are worth it, you have a whole life ahead of you and this is just a time in your life, this does not have to define you or be how your whole life looks like. You are so very strong and have endured so much already as a young person. Reach out and take care of you.
Huge hugs to you Shavon and I hope to chat some more to you, we are here.