It's really great that you have decided to ask for help here on the forums. It can be really difficult asking for help but you have taken a great step forward in posting your concerns. Can I ask how long you have been feeling like this? Have you talked about it to a trusted friend or family member?
I suggest that you contact the BeyondBlue support lines to discuss your concerns further. I always found that when I was too shy to talk about how I am feeling that live chat or email was a great way to communicate. Perhaps you could try the BeyondBlue live chat? They are available to chat from 3pm until midnight, just scroll down to the bottom of the webpage and click on the 'Chat Online' icon. You could also call the 24hr BeyondBlue support line on 1300 224 636. The people who answer the phones are fantastic and can give you some great advice and can help you further.
Hang in there and don't be afraid to ask for help, there is no shame at all. There are so many people out there that would love to help you!