It is great to hear back from you, but this is your thread and I am here for you so no pressure at all to be here and posting as an obligation, you come and go as you feel you need to and I will be here when you need.
Also please don't think you have let me down, you can never let me down and I am not here to judge you or have any expectations, I am here to support you and to provide some comfort and perhaps have a chat about things that can be done to help you.
I am so happy to hear that you do feel supported here, that is really great, CONGRATULATIONS on winning your cricket premiership, that is absolutely fantastic and a huge achievement, well done to you and your team. I get that you want to celebrate and enjoy the moment with your team and mates, it is part of the Aussie way, good or bad. I know in light of your one month sobriety you will be feeling very bad about the fact you did have a drink and that one led to another, the thing is that behavior changes are hard and mostly people do fall down a few times before they "kick the habit" so to speak. Alcohol is no different to a diet or quitting smoking or stopping online shopping or any addiction people have, and it is hard, bloody hard, it would not be called an addiction if it was easy to stop. So I ask you to forgive yourself, you are human, you make choices that aren't always good ones, but hey, we all do it. Today you start over, you take a breath and you start over, you tell yourself you are not a bad person, you have not let anyone down, you made a bad choice and today is a new day.
You have proved to yourself that you can do a month and that is a wonderful achievement, never forget that.
Stand outside, take a huge breath in, let the bad out, forgive yourself and allow yourself some slack here. You get back on that horse and off we go again, I am here to chat anytime you need to.
Once again Cresw1ck I am not here to judge you so you never have to apologize to me. I think you are so much stronger than you know.
Chat soon and hugs to you.