Welcome and thank-you for being a part of the forum family too!
The Beyond Blue forums are a non judgemental and Safe place for you to post :-) You have taken the time and effort to write your own thread topic...That makes you an amazing and strong person Alex!
You are not a traitor or have shown any disrespect towards your mum in any shape or form. You are an individual that wants to have a talk to others that may be in a similar situation as yourself.
14 is a difficult age...seriously....You have academic goals.....doing your best to be a good son (which I am sure you are) Peer group pressure even though common can be a challenge as well....especially at 14!
I am sorry that you are going through a difficult time at home as you mentioned with the verbal and sometimesphysical abuse Alex. Only if its okay...can I ask why your mum becomes frustrated with you? Please ignore my question if you wish as I am only trying to help out...No worries either way
Your best friend doesnt really seem to be behaving like a best friend by ignoring and not responding to you. That would be hurtful at any age Alex...Has your friend given you a reason why at all?
You have nothing to apologise for Alex. Beyond Blue dont prioritize peoples problems. Your situation is just as important to us as anyone else's here..even mine...also being a new member is important to us as if we didnt new people....the forums would cease to exist.
Your privacy and well being are paramount to us Alex. When and if you wish....you are more than welcome to post back. There are many gentle people on the forums that can be here for you too :-)
my kindest thoughts and best