Hi there! I'm Sam, I've not yet posted on this forum so here goes :) I've had anxiety since a very young age, I'm now 18 however am still plagued by it. Interesting enough I'd say I have a good perspective of life, there's definitely times where life has been tough but for the most part I actually am extremely grateful to be alive and receive the support I do.
Unfortunately, my love for life is the cause of what I'd consider to be quite a tough part of my life. I'm currently investigating some digestive issues alongside my GP, I've been sick for quite a while, about a month. No vomiting (hooray!!) however frequent abdominal pain and toilet visits. Now here's where things get tricky, I'm terrified of illnesses.. I'm terrified of being sick, it scares me, makes me extremely anxious and lately I've been beginning to wonder whether all of these abdominal problems I've been having are a direct result of my fears of whatever could be going on inside me. My mind often races, "What if I have cancer", "What if I die?!?" and this generally leads me to only feeling worse and being terrified. I want to live my life, I want to be happy and until I know nothings medically wrong with me, my mind can only keep racing with these horrific thoughts.
My parents tell me that it's all in my head as I'm yet to have any medical diagnoses and nothing to back the pain I'm in but it's torture, I can't sleep, I barely eat, I've lost kilograms in a matter of weeks and yet I'm just to believe its all in my head? I don't think so, I just want to feel okay, I just want to rid of this pain and I'm so anxious as a result of what COULD be wrong with me, not what actually is...
Any replies are appreciated, I'm just really looking to reach out and hear what others may have to say. Thank You for reading this all if yah made it here :)