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Topic: Maybe it’s just part of being a teen...

12 posts, 0 answered
  1. mmx
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    28 February 2018
    I’m 14, and for the last 3 years I’ve been feeling so alone. I have anxiety, I’m not sure about depression because there is no way I could ask for help from my parents. I really don’t like school and the stress it puts on me. There is a group of girls who ‘run’ my year level, and I feel like I have to live up to their standards all the time so I don’t look like a weirdo. Lately, I’ve been exercising and eating less to get thinner and look how I want to. Every day when I go to school, it’s like I put on this mask that I am this happy girl who is loving life, but when I’m alone the mask comes off. I’ve tried to reach out for help about my anxiety and thoughts, but nothing helps. I just put up with it all now. I can’t wait for this all to be over. I don’t even know why I’m here, I just want to put my words down somewhere. Reply with whatever you can.
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  2. blondguy
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    28 February 2018 in reply to mmx

    Hi MMX

    Welcome and good on you for being a part of the forum family too :-)

    You have posted under 'young people' which is great. I just thought I would bump up your thread to give your thread the attention it deserves.

    You are amazing for having the courage to post on the forums. I may be wrong but the group of girls that 'run' your year level wouldnt have the intellect or strength to post here if they had an issue

    Can I ask if you have a a couple (or even one) of friends that you can talk to during the day? Having some support is always a bonus mmx. If you dont we have young people on the forums that can be here for you...no problem!

    I am happy you are here as there are many young people that choose to only read the forums for support which is fine. You have summoned the strength to post on Beyond Blue :-) That makes you an amazing person

    The forums are a safe and non judgemental place for you to post whatever is on your mind

    I hope you can post back when convenient. Without new posters there would be no forums mmx

    Excellent post and thankyou for being a part of the forum family :-)

    Paul

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  3. mmx
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    3 March 2018 in reply to blondguy

    Thank you so much for replying Paul! I’m happy you took the time to write something here for me :)

    I do have quite a few friends at school who I can rely on, but I wouldn’t be comfortable telling them how I’m feeling. They are the sort of girls who would interrupt me as soon as they had something in common with what I am saying and tell me how they’re going. I wouldn’t feel comfortable telling anyone at all really about how I feel, my mum actually suffers from quite a severe depression and I feel like if I talked to her she might feel like I’m just going through a phase. I wouldn’t feel comfortable with the school councillors either because then my teachers and parents would be involved... that’s why I prefer a keyboard to just type everything down and rant on like this, and hopefully help others who are scrolling through the forums and have a similar problem to me.

    Thank you again for replying,

    mmx

  4. geoff
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    4 March 2018 in reply to mmx
    Hi MMX, can I also welcome you and it is very brave for you to post a comment because these girls wouldn't even consider doing such a thing.

    Even though you have a few friends which are good, but you're not sure if they would go and tell these girls who 'run your year level' and then break your trust.

    I hope that you can talk with us so we can help you and then hopefully other people who have had the same situation may reply back to you. Geoff.
  5. mmx
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    4 March 2018 in reply to geoff

    Thanks for replying Geoff! :)

    Yes, that is true, I don’t think I have one friend who hasn’t broken my trust already. They seem to go off and tell everyone else everything before I have a chance to stop them.

    It would be so helpful to continue to talk with you and others on this forum, I hope anything anyone replies will help others like me.

    mmx

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  6. geoff
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    6 March 2018 in reply to mmx

    Hi MMX, thanks for getting back to us and the trouble with these 'friends'spreading what you have told them is that it escalates, for example, a splinter in your finger could finally end up with the finger being removed after it has been passed around a dozen people.

    It would be great to talk with you again. Geoff.

  7. Chloe_M
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    9 March 2018 in reply to mmx
    OMG! Hi I'm new and I have depression and anxiety. I 101% relate to your issues what with feeling like an absolute fake in front of my friends and family... the only person I can talk to and be my self with is my friend, who is also... my ex-best friend and ex-boyfriend! It sucks but the pain is numb now... I guess you just get used to it.
  8. mmx
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    10 March 2018 in reply to Chloe_M

    Hey Chloe,

    I’m so glad you came here, it’s good knowing I have someone I can relate to.

    It would be great if we both stayed on this forum together and helped each other out.

    mmx

  9. Chloe_M
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    5 April 2018 in reply to mmx

    Hey mmx,

    It is a good feeling knowing there is more than one person out there feeling like you! It would be great if we continued helping each other out. I too have no help from my parents. They just don't know me.

    I have something that I find helps me with dealing with anxiety and intrusive thoughts. Its supposed to be in table form but I think you can understand it like this.

    Draw a table/make a list. In the first column, write the heading Situation. In the next, write Emotions. In the third, Thoughts, and in the fourth, Alternative Thoughts. Under Situation, write the situation or thing that is making you anxious. In Emotions, write down how this situation makes you feel and how your body reacts to that physically (e.g sweating, shaking, hyperventilating, crying etc). Under Thoughts, write down the intrusive/anxious thoughts. Finally, under Alternative Thoughts, write down any thoughts that don't make you anxious that you could think instead.

    This may not work for you, but its worth giving it a try!

    Chloe_M

  10. Chloe_M
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    12 April 2018 in reply to Chloe_M

    Hi again mmx,

    sorry I disappeared off the forums after I sent that first post 😬, it would be great to still continue communicating and helping each other on this thread.

    hope you're doing okay

    Chloe

  11. Emma42
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    25 March 2020 in reply to mmx

    Hi mmx. I’m new here and was just browsing when I saw your post and I felt sorry that no one had replied to you when your post was sent so long ago. I can relate to what you are feeling and haven’t resolved the problems with myself yet so I’m hardly qualified to give advice. But even so, it sounds like those girls who ‘run’ your grade are pretty shallow. I assume you have heard the thing about insecure people lashing out on others- well it sounds to me like those girls are crazy insecure. And you don’t need their approval. You are strong and independent and don’t need to chase their approval which is really worth nothing if they don’t like you as you already are. If you did change yourself so they like you then they don’t like YOU. They like who they made you into. But again, this is my opinion, if you feel the need to become their friend then go for it!

    But maybe it would help to have some friends outside of school so you don’t feel so alone. Like, if your friends at school do something bad or you argue you can still have that person on the outside who is still there for you. Again, sorry if this is useless. I hope that you find useful advice somewhere!

  12. Emma42
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    25 March 2020 in reply to Emma42
    Oh no I just realised that I accidentally replied to your first post rather than the newest. I’m sorry. I had my thing set to oldest first rather than newest first and I thought your first post on this forum was the newest. Sorry!! Ignore I was ever here. 😐