I wanted to reply to your post because I went through something
similar about two years ago.
I had two friends and during most of our friendship I felt
excluded and sometimes put down. This led to feelings of sadness, loneliness
and a sense that I was unwanted. Long story short, after a falling out, they stayed
friends and I was on my own.
At the time, I felt very hurt and alone. However, if I had stayed in that group, I never would have gotten close
to all the wonderful people I’ve talked to in the past few years. People who
are genuinely kind and try to make everyone feel welcome. People I find myself
enjoying being around them much more than I ever did with my old friends.
Everyone’s experiences are unique, and you may really enjoy
the company of your friends which is why I wouldn’t necessarily suggest doing
as I did. You are really the only person who can know how you feel, but, in my
opinion, you shouldn’t have to wonder if you will be ignored and you shouldn’t
have to feel miserable and defeated.
What I’m saying is: Sometimes conflicts can’t be resolved,
and sometimes they aren’t worth being resolved. I think it can be very damaging
to your mental health and sense of worth to be around people who make you feel
lonely and who you feel don’t really care.
There is nothing wrong with stepping back a little bit or
talking to new people. For example, over social media or messages. Moreover, You don’t
necessarily have to make a severance from your group and instead you could focus
on those friends who said they are there for you and have more one on one interactions
I don’t know the reasons for your falling out, but I know it’s
always hurtful for someone to tell you they don’t want to be friends with you. You
can’t make people want to be your friend, but don’t forget that you have a choice
too. Try to surround yourself with people you trust and people who trust you.
Also, everything I said is just my opinion! Maybe
try talk to someone you know and trust who isn’t involved in the situation,
like a parent, guardian, sibling, or trusted adult. Lots of people go through
friendship trouble and I’m sure they’ll be happy to help.
Best of luck,