This is my first time posting, so hi everyone!!
So basically, I used to enjoy school a lot.
I had friends and I never really had a day when I believed that I didn't like school at all. But this year sort of hit me like a truck, and I've been separated from my friends and my core class sucks. (I'm a yr 10 by the way). At first, I tried to think positively like, I might as well make some new friends, but everyone already has their own friendship groups and they're all sort of intimidating. Then I thought I should at least focus on my studies, but now whatever my teachers say don't make sense to me anymore and I constantly find myself confused. (I also feel like a majority of my teachers don't like me so that's great)
I find myself crying for hardly any reason and everyday I just can't find the motivation to go to class and enjoy anything. At first, I thought that it was because I was cut off from all my buddies and that was the reason I was feeling down, but then whenever lunch comes around (which is basically the only time I see them), I always seem to get really annoyed at them for hardly any reason at all and I just want to be left alone, to be by myself. Then when I'm in class, I become sad at how lonely I feel.
My home life's good, and home is really the only place I like being in, but when I'm go to sleep, my head suddenly reminds me that I have no friends, there's hardly anyone I like and then I just start crying again. I want to tell my parents, but for some reason, I can't find the guts to tell them. Sometimes, I just feel like I'm overreacting, like this is just me being hormonal and attention-seeking and that it's just school. I need to toughen up because everyone else adapted, so why can't I?
I realised I basically wrote an essay but yeah, that's about it ...
(Thank you if you've read this far)