I deal with depression and anxiety. I have for a very long time,
I am the youngest of three. We dealt with some bad stuff when we were your age. Mum was an alcoholic, Dad was too and they used to fight all the time, It use to get very scary for us, we would get together and hide in a closet under the staircase, police would come around all the time.
I was born in Spain and living there when this happened. One night mum came into our room and woke us up, sang us a song, I found out the next morning she left for England.
Dad tried to follow her with us so we moved to England for a while. Things got bad again and the three of us found another hiding place.
This time it got really bad so Dad flew us here to Australia put us in boarding schools and flew back.
We lost our home, our parents, and found ourselves on the other side of the world, living with complete strangers.. there were plenty of days where I wanted to hide.. we did our best.
We used to go back to England and Spain for Christmas but mum got worse with her drinking and Dad stopped trying, and wanted to start being happy again. So after a few years hat stopped. When I as 17 I started partying more than studying, my brother became mentally ill, and my sister developed cancer in her spine and became paraplegic. Did cake over to help her, but I don’t he liked me very much, I used to give him a hard time for leaving us. So one day he bought me a plane ticket to England to live with mum. When I saw her at the airport her face as green and she looked very sick from alcohol.
She lived in a government supported house, she died 5 days later.
At that point I had enough.. I was tired of being scared, angry and disappointed, so I walked away, went to Sweden got a job and made some friends, bought an old car and travelled all around Europe on my own. Jobs here jobs there, sometimes I slept on the street or under a bridge.. I used to buy newspapers and stuff my jumperwith then so I’d keep warm a night. I change my world, I was still scared I knew then that I always will be.
i came back to Australia when I was 21 and went to uni and studied architecture.. that was really scary...
im now 40 I have two daughters 7 & 9 beautiful girls.. and I draw big buildings.. I’m still scared, sometimes I don’t sleep because I’m worried my buildings will fall down.