I’m so sorry to have red through your very personal thread, and to hear of such awful painful traumatic experience with your own Mum too. I’m sorry you had to go though such of horrible thing on your own.
But your not alone anymore. You have us, your have Beyond Blue. We’re here for you.
Your incredibly strong. Your still here. Your still fighting to be on this planet.
You have a lot more strength in you then you actual believe you do.
I’ve never experienced my own Mum yelling at me and telling me I’m fat and ugly. so I can’t fully understand what that would of felt and and could still be feel like for you, and Ikm not even going to try and prentend like I can have sort of understanding, because I don’t.
But, I can sit here on my iPad and type to you and tell you that no matter what your Mum is yelling at you, that you are beautiful.
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. YOU ARE STUNNING.
ARE ARE NOT FAT. YOU ARE NOT UGLY.
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL. Say it - I want you to say it to yourself - every day. Stand in front the you mirror, and tell yourself
I AM BEAUTIFUL.
I AM STUNNING.
I AM A LOVELY PERSON.
I AM A BEAUTIFUL PERSON.
I LOVE MYSELF.
I LOVE THE WAY I LOOK.
I LOVE THE WAY I DRESS.
I AM BEAUTIFUL!
Say it 10 times - every day for the next week. Morning and night. And then in a weeks time, you let me know if you’re started to believe in anything I’ve told you. And anything you’ve been saying to yourself twice a day everyday in the mirror.