Given that it is almost the end of the school year I wanted to see if you've been able to try any of the solid ideas Paul and StartingNew have suggested. How are you holding up?
School can be an isolating place and it is sad to hear the situation is making you feel uncomfortable about next year too.
I was wondering what has happened to make you believe your old friends are judging you? Has anyone said anything to you or is it the usual underhanded social media bitchiness?
What do you think of SNs idea of seeking out extracurricular activities? Holidays are a difficult time especially coming into a break knowing your conflicts aren't yet resolved and being isolated. Keeping busy can help if you find yourself returning to unhelpful thoughts.
For me it also helps to remind myself that my anxiety can make me believe everyone is thinking the worst of me. Angry at me. Or complaining about me. But the reality is people are usually thinking about themselves. I am catastophising needlessly. What helps is keeping busy doing things I enjoy.
It feels easier now to say it but my goodness in school I was the same. It is so bloody painful to feel like you don't belong or are no ones first choice. Curiously speaking to school mates once we left school so many felt exactly the same. It is a truly difficult time of life.
That said... You're studies seem to be going ok (good for you). Perhaps rather than trying to fit in with others you can spend the holidays finding out what YOU enjoy and what feels good for you?
I hope this week has been easier.