im sorry for that title I’m very new to this thing, hopefully this can help me cope with my anxiety. As you can probably tell I am not an adult and barely a teen yet, and I know you’re saying “how can this girl who’s barely even a teen have anxiety?”. And you may be right, I don’t want attention or anything I just want to be heard.
Lately my heart is starting to hurt. My friends are slowly deteriorating and forgetting about me. We all used to be a group but now they’ve all broken up into little duos leaving me alone. They’ve all changed and barely even talk to me. But I can’t help it and I keep hanging on. I really wish I didn’t care so much, but it’s impossible, we were all the best of friends.
one of the people in the group, she figured I was feeling a bit down and asked me if ‘I was okay’. We talked for a while but it didn’t feel she was supporting me. At the time I felt very happy, “maybe I can get back with the group, maybe we could all be friends again.” That was what I thought.
But she never came back, she hasn’t texted me or asked and none of the rest of them realise how much they’ve excluded me. But I keep wanting to go back, and I’m terribly antisocial so I haven’t made any other friends.
Ive been trying to reconnect, but I fear it’s just me who wants them back. I’m always the one texting first and they answer with vague replies or after a long time. I think I’m trying to hard, but when I don’t try I keep thinking of all the great times we’ve had together and my heart aches.
This isn’t much to share but slowly I’ll unwind more here, as I’m a newbie. The answer may be clear to you all, but I’m at a loss. Please help me !
much love to you all who are suffering just as I am <3