Hey Big J
I too Over the last year have thought the same but then I realised it wasn’t me at all.
Even went to a professional to get confirmation that what I was feeling was alright.
I cut ties with my family, well the ones who were toxic throughout my life, and well I haven’t felt so good, it’s been a light year not having to worry about wht they think, what they need me to do for them, they went out and said whatever about me, nothing good, but no one listened.
See I just went on and made my life better and I have been happy, and guess what, they now hear how good I’m going and how happy i am, they want back into my life, was very very easy to say no.
Now these were very close family members, mum/siblings/mums family, but I realised they should be the ones feeling guilty because I defiantly wasn’t feeling guilty, I have never been happier, so if I’m guilty of anything it’s beinf this happy and having less stress.
I don’t need them to be happy, they were the cause of my unhappiness, it just took a simple stand for myself and made the decision yep I’m going to be me and if they don’t like it cause it doesn’t suits them then too bad, haven’t looked back since.
They are the losers at the end of the day, treating anyone in that manner is not acceptable and shouldn’t be tolerated, especially when your doing so well.
Be proud of yourself and keep going, don’t feelmguilry for doing well, be proud of what you have done all by yourself, you don’t need approval from anyone else, do what makes you happy.
Good luck, your new year resolution should be, do what makes me happy and successful and never feel guilty about it.
All the best Big J