Welcome to the forums ☺️ Firstly I just want to say that it’s a great thing that you’re willing to talk about your mental health. Well done. I understand though that it can be quite nerve wreaking at the start. I remember the first time I opened up to a professional I was filled with many of the same worries as you. I especially worried that I wouldn’t be believed, which would have been so difficult to face as I’d been brave enough to be honest. I was very anxious, but it all worked out fine and I never had any regrets about opening up because it put me on the path to getting the help I needed. I felt such relief that I’d just done it, and I wasn’t going to be alone in coping with my mental health anymore.
Its good that you already have a positive relationship with your doctor. Being able to trust the other person is crucial. GPs see a lot of people for mental health issues, so it won’t be a shock. If you find that your doctor isn’t receptive to your concerns or just doesn’t seem helpful you can always find another one who will listen.
It might help If you write down what you want to say to the doctor, so that if you’re anxious when you’re there you won’t forget what you want to say. You could even write it as a letter that you give him and he can read it there while you wait. That’s ok too. Whatever you need to do to make yourself feel comfortable and give you the best shot of opening up.
Many people find asking for help with their mental health hard. But I will say that in my experience, it gets SO much easier the more you do it. Sometimes it’s a case of breaking through that invisible wall that keeps it all in. Sometimes that wall is feelings of shame - that you think you should be able to deal with this yourself. But it’s not true. Mental health is just as serious as physical health and you deserve to be treated in exactly the same way. There is no need to feel ashamed.
When you see your doctor it’s best that you ask for a Mental Health Care Plan which will give you to 10 reduced fee or free sessions with a psychologist per year. While GPs are a good starting point for getting help, it’s usually best to be referred to see a psychologist who has the most experience and training in the area. They are the ones who can teach you about what you’re experiencing and help you to build the skills you need to manage it.
You’re being so brave doing this. Reaching out might be hard at first, but it can make all the difference. Take care.