I feel like I’ve been in this mental health journey since I was 14. This year will mark 10 years - I’m just over living like this and failing to find the positive everyday.
just quickly what’s on my mind - financial difficulty even though my boyfriend and I have a ‘reasonable’ income - including juggling credit card debt. I’ve flunked uni, probably going to kicked out and my hecs debt is just adding up. I have more debt to my insurance company for a car accident. My boyfriend knows about the debt, doesn’t know about uni - I feel like a failure. I feel our relationship isn’t going anywhere and it’s just become some sort of convenient domestic partnership.
i am overweight and struggling - it’s like I tell myself I’ll be happy after I lose weight.
the probably worst part of this is I guess i put on a brave front everyday going to work in an office in the corporate world and then that’s my life on repeat Monday to friday and it’s just all my fault anyway.