I'm just gonna get introductions out of the way.
My name is Brandon and I'm currently 18 years old. Right now I'm unemployed and in the middle of moving into a new place and becoming fully independent.
So this is my story I guess.
Okay so, I don't really know where to start so I'll just say that I think I have depression. To be honest I think I've been experiencing some sort of mental illness for a long time, 6 or 7 years I'd say but i didn't really notice until about 3-4 months ago.
Around the time I started to notice, I started to do research and look up the symptoms and whatnot and to my surprise, I saw that I was affected by those same symptoms. Now I definitely know I do.
I have no energy, no motivation, I don't enjoy the things I used to, I went from 3 meals a day to barely 1, I don't leave my house for weeks at a time, I feel more lonely than ever and to top all of that off; I blame myself for it.
It was only til recently that I started getting dark thoughts and here's the kicker: I've even thought of giving up which sounds absolutely crazy, I mean I have a loving family and a supportive group of friends but sometimes I just feel so hopeless.
Of course I know how bad it is but I still haven't really told anyone because I don't really know how; not because it's hard talking to them but because of something in my self. I don't know maybe once in my life I got told to stop talking or keep quiet and it must of got to me.
Anyway to anyone who finds this, thank you. It's been hard but you've done an amazing job and although I know nothing about you, I'm proud of you.
To all the other people struggling right now, I know you can do this just like I can.
Before I go I would just like to share a quote that I really resonated with for some reason.
"You know what the best thing about hitting rock bottom is? There's only one way to go and that's up."
Hope/Glad you're okay.