After an emotional breakdown in front of my mother, we both agreed its time i start making an effort to improve my mental health, which is why I'm new here.
For about 4-5 years, I have been dealing with a combination of social anxiety, agoraphobia and depression. I am 21 now, so for the better part of my teen years, I have been introverted and unable to be a typical young adult. The worst thing I have is agoraphobia, I simply cannot leave my house no matter what I do.
I have been couped up in my room for months, literally not leaving my house for 4 months. I get severe anxiety attacks when I do leave my house, with diarrhea and horrible stomach pains being constant for me. My agoraphobia is so bad that I can't go to see my GP which is 5 minutes away by car. I have taken medication for anxiety but that has been little help.
I have lost friends due to not being able to go out with them, as such only having maybe 2 friends, and unfortunately they aren't the best of friends. I live alone with my mum, who works a lot and who endures financial hardship just to keep a roof over our head. The fact that I can't help out by getting a job makes me feel worthless and like an utter disappointment as a son.
I am also gay, having broken up with my ex about 3 months ago. Not leaving the house played a role in the breakup. I have terrible self-esteem, which causes me to be severely depressed when nobody talks to me.
The reason I have joined beyondblue is so that I can have a normal life and be able to support myself and my family. Being new here, I'm not sure what services are available to me, or how to proceed after this post. I have to admit that I have my doubts, since I am totally unable to leave my house at this stage.
Thank you for reading. Any and all advice/direction would be really helpful to me. I just don't really know what to do next. All i know is that I need to get over this agoraphobia/diarrhea/depression. I owe it to myself and my mum to have a normal and happy life.