Thanks for reaching out, And well done for doing so.
it sounds like you are going through a very difficult time. I’m sorry to hear. How long has this been going on for you?
I can relate to your feelings of self loathing, my biggest issue is that it happens when I try to sleep at night, and ends with no sleep at all..
its very challenging to deal with the head when it gets this way.
Have you sought support with a GP or therapy? And have you spoken with your parents about this?
there is plenty of support here on this forum and plenty of strangers with their own experiences that get lots of support, so you are not alone with you difficulties.
can you tell me where all this I self loathing comes from? I’m no expert but got all the time in the world to hear you, because I believe your worth it..
you took the time to come here, pat yourself on the back and feel good about that,
I hope you can share where this is coming from..