it sounds like everything is pretty much up in the air at the moment for you and the unknown can be oh so daunting ..especially when you are 18 . One piece of advice I have for you is that you must have always faith in yourself that you will deal with the situation the best way you know how given the uncontrollable factors . Know that you will always find a way to tunnel through somehow. And that things will also work out in the end . You must always remember to play ...yes ..no spelling error there ..I did say play . Have fun with whatever life chucks at you . It’s all about the play .
remember these quotes ..they have helped me through my atrocities and I am happy to have come out on top .
1)Please grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change ..courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference
2) you always get the choice to choose your reactions ...always
good luck with it all