Just wanted to say hi and let you know that someone out there is reading your post.
Firstly, good on you for having the courage to reach out and seek help. Feeling down isn’t nice but sharing how you’re feeling is a really positive step.
Have you talked to anyone in real life about the fact you’ve been feeling down a lot lately? It could be a good idea to chat to someone who is trained in dealing with these sorts of things, like a school counsellor, your GP or a psychologist.
High school can be really hard, especially if you don’t feel like you have a group of supportive friends around you. I completely understand that feeling - my last year of high school was very similar.
Friends should be people who have a positive impact on your life, people who you feel comfortable with and supported by. It sounds like you do have some people like this in your life, which is awesome! My advice would be to continue to pursue these friendships. Although they don’t go to the same school as you, just messaging them or asking if you could chat on the phone could be a step in the right direction. You could even talk to them about your problems at school and say that you’d really like to hang out with them because you really value their friendship and support. People like to hear that they are valued, so taking the time to tell them what their friendship means to you might help to strengthen that bond between you.
Do you have many years left until you finish high school? Could you try getting involved in a club or sport that no one in your ‘group’ is interested in, as a way to potentially make some new friends? If you’re almost finished school, then you’re in luck! Very soon you won’t have to spend every day with that group and will able to phase out some of the negative people in your life.
I don’t have any friends left from high school, but since then I’ve created a few really strong, supportive friendships with people who I feel impact my life in a positive way. I feel much better now than I did when I had a big friendship group of people who I couldn’t trust, and I know you will too.
This stage of your life won’t last forever - things will get better. Anotherteen, I’m sending kind thoughts your way!