I don't know where to begin on writing this - I'm turning 25 this year which is kind of scary.
I'm sad and feel depleted that I have no enthusiasm for anything in my life at the moment.
I know that I want a future, a livelihood I'm passionate about, a loving relationship and friends, and maybe even a family one day.
But my brain just jolts from thought to thought. often caught in an abyss of numbness. Most of the time, I just feel dumb, for not being able to think of anything/be creative. I'm numb all the time
I'm fed up of having to deal with my brother's criticism of me. I don't want to waste the remainder of my life being unhappy but I don't know how to get out of this dark pit. I want to be happy - at least for my parents sake - who knows how long I'll have with them..they're getting quite old now.
I've been on and off medication for a year...mostly just been swayed by other's opinions thinking its a weakness to be on it. But tbh some of my happiest months of 2018 was when I was on it.
I feel like I'm caught in a deep sea rip and don't know how to rescue myself