my first time writing all this out, and i'm new here - so hello and thank you for deciding to read this.
my anxiety had always been there, as it is for all people, but it wasn't until last year - being in the passenger seat of a car accident; brought a lot of past trauma back - into my life, that i obviously had repressed.
and i have not been the same since.
my brother died, i was eight.
then my dad died, i was seventeen.
and the car accident happened last year, and after that - my anxiety became to what it is today,
i have seeked support, and am currently undertaking EFT with my professional. she helps, but i thought that this may help me go further,
because lately - i have not been doing well at all,
mainly - because i'm not only anxious in general, but i am anxious, about being anxious.
whilst I can find my anxiety becoming over bearing as i'm constantly overthinking and analysing nerving situations i am in, or creating false narratives designed to cause myself pain, and stress brew in my mind.
i am in pain, i present myself as a casual, happy, fun individual who seems to be coping well on the outside,
but internally - i feel so much more, pain, sadness, grief.
i just am trying to better it all, and want relief - but it's very, very hard to find.
i just want clarity from all of this, and i want to move forward, but it's been a everyday thing for the past month or so, i thought this may be a good place to start,
it was even just nice to write this all out.