I don't really want to be a bother to anyone, but I really need to talk right now.
So here goes nothing.
It might not be as bad as what others have to go through, but I just can't fall asleep until it's about 3 or 4 in the morning. I sometimes don't sleep at all. Whenever I do try, I always panic, and/or think of trivial things, that have no relation whatsoever, but there's always a pit in my stomach, telling me something's going to go wrong.
There are times at school where I get to class a little late, and I get so nervous about interrupting something important, or putting myself in a position where others might judge me, that I freeze, and just awkwardly stand outside the door. A lot of the times, I actually go to sick-bay, because I end up crying outside. I panic a lot when people ask me where I've been if I've been to the toilet, or been called out by the teacher to do something, and I don't work well with pressure on me.
My mum booked an appointment with the GP the other day, because she said that I was being "simply ridiculous", but whenever the GP tried to ask me a question, my mother would just answer for me. I found it really difficult to deal with, and when I told my mum I was trying to tell the doctor how I really felt, she told me to be quiet, and that I didn't understand what was going on. In the end, the doctor just brushed it off, and whenever I did answer a question myself, my mother would say something like "That's not right! You feel/act like ____".
I feel like my mum doesn't really understand how I feel in general. I found out a teacher had told my mum that I needed a little bit of emotional support, and my mother scolded me when I got home, telling me that I just being a pushover, and that I should spend more time on my studies.
I would talk to my dad, but I don't think he'd be much better.
After my mum had told him what had happened, he seemed to be in a sour mood. He was really angry at me, for no apparent reason, and while he was shouting at me to work faster, he suddenly burst into tears. He told me that there was no way that I was having a worse time then him, as "(he has) to work at a sh*tty job, with sh*tty people, anyway, (I) shouldn't be sad, because there's no reason for (me) to be!"
Afterward, he just continued crying, before I tried to comfort him and calm him down.
If anyone could give me any advice, it would be amazing.
I wish I knew what to do.
I'm sorry for wasting everyone's time anyway...