My story starts from a very young age of not feeling good enought to fit in anywhere and not haveing much direction in life, i didn’t acully know what depression was and was acully too embarrared to talk about it with anybody, So id just hide away and sleep alot.At the age of 17 i knew i wasn’t well when i acully couldn’t walk into a shoping center for fear of being looked at or judged, i thought people could see right throught me into my heart and know that it was dead.I was merlested by my gradfather for years and had a rotten father who pretty much turned a blind eye to it. Im 33 now and can say ive only just gotten on top of everything, its important to get the write medication prosribed for you from the start,And the right help. Ive finally relised i am a serviver , and i was determained to not let these events ruin the rest of my life. If anything from what has happened to me i know longer fear judgement by others and i am very comfortable in my own skin, knowing that ive made it and am liveing my life exactly how i want to.Ive turned my guilt into compassion for others and that helps me feel good about myself.It all so helps to have the underlieing belife that you are normal even tho you get deppressed have anixity,and all i can say now is if you hit rock bottom theres only one way to go, and thats build your selfesteam back up and keep on keeping on, because in the end you have as much right to be here as anybody else.
August 15, 2012