My story
My Secrets
Is there ever a time when you can just call a quits? I mean, I’ve tried and it never worked. Adults look at me with pity in their eyes and teenagers disregard me. Why couldn’t I just be considered normal? Maybe my peers would treat me better if I had cancer or a disability. Who knows.
I used to push it all under a rug; the 3 suicide attempts, the rape, the attempt or murder, the depression and bullying. And the sad thing is the thing that effected me the most was the day I heard my own father call me ’sick in the head’. He wanted to stick me in a mental asylum for a week to teach me a lesson.
I’m struggling to find reasons to live rather than enjoying life. Shcool should have been an escape but it’s not. They say I’m a druggo, they I’m pregnant or worse things.
Yea, it hurts. Yeah, I let it get to me. I wish I didn’t. But I do.
I wanted to share my secrets and how much it hurts. I haven’t gotten to the other side, I don’t know if I will. But there is always someone out there who cares. I hope you care. Thanks.
Bryn
July 13, 2012
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Oh my gosh I do care! How can I not after reading that?!
Sometimes there’s certain things about you that you just can’t change. For you, that’s letting things get to you. People who say you’re a druggo and you’re pregnant don’t have any right to say that because either they don’t know the true side of your story, or they’re just plain mean and trying to stir you up.
If you ever need anyone, Liz and I are here, we’ve made it known. Pleeeeeease keep posting
Thank you both so much! Sorry, the reply took so long because I happened to forget the site’s name.
The sad thing is they DO know what’s happening to me. Everyone at school does. I don’t know how, but they do. I’ve felt worse these last few days. I went through my friend’s messages (she was there with me) and I found some revealing messages. They were to my ex boyfriend who said he was still in love with me. It was an eye opener. I cried for a few nights straight. It’s been a week and it gets worse at school. My ex is now horrible to me and these girls laugh as if they can’t believe I went out with someone like him while the others think it’s no big deal. I’m greatful to not have broken down in front of everyone yet. I know I have it good compared to some in the world but I want to get past it badly. And again, thanks!
highschool sucks, but you need to stay strong just remember one day youll be out of school and youll get to decide your life. teenagers are cruel, believe me i know i get bullied as well so i kind of know where your coming from just stay strong. there are people who care about you, if you ever need to talk im here for you
-K
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Oh honey I’m so sorry , I’m here to talk with you thankyou so much, maybe read my stories, Why? And the way I see it! They may help, if you ever need to talk I’m here ok