sometimes i feel like i have no controll over my anxiety. doctors tell me that its a chemical imbalance, but my mind is always wanting to not beleive that and beleive that i am meant to have these thoughts and meant to hurt myself. no one i have ever talked to can understand what i mean by this. i just hope somoone else does think these things to because that would mean that im not a freak and well this is just anxiety and nothing else, and it has no greater meaning to it.
April 29, 2012