My story
dont know what to do anymore
My name is TeeJayy and im 15
for the past couple of years i haven’t felt like myself i have had the sudden urges to end it ALL,,
it all started when i left the only thing that mattered to me. we moved away and i didnt talk to anyone for about 3 years after.. over the last year or so i have been bullied so much about the way that i am. i have thought about how much happier everyone would be if i didnt have a place in this world anymore
i seriously need helpp!!
TeeJayy
April 29, 2012
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Hello TeeJayy,
I am 51 years old…yeah I know I’m ancient. When I was 15 y.o. I believe I suffered from a level of undiagnosed depression, it lasted for about 2 years. Each day felt like a never ending wave of sadness would wash over me, the days became weeks then months. I felt i could not talk to anyone about it. I couldn’t talk to my parents, after all, parents are on another planet , I thought they would’nt understand.I couldn’t talk to my friends because i was unsure if i could rely on their absolute confidentiality and i really wasn’t sure if they were true friends. I guess thats why it remained undiagnosed (because I didnt feel safe or comfortable talking to someone about it). Yes I even had my own suicide plan. i lived with these feelings for about 2 years or so. The most courageous thing i could’ve done was ask for help but finding the right person to talk to is not easy. If I could offer 1 piece of advice from my own experience TeeJayy, it would be to take that first big courageous step and “ask for help” from an adult you trust or counsellor . It will be the biggest step but the rewards will be great.
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Hi TeeJayy,
Sounds like it would be great to get some help. Well done on reaching out for some support.
Please talk to an older adult or a counselor at school or your GP. Ask them to help you to get linked in with a counselor.
It’s really normal to experience suicidal thoughts when you are down or stressed. They will go away when your mood improves and this can happen by linking in with the right supports.
Stay in touch and take care,
Youth Beyondblue Team