My story
The lies, the heartbreak that follows
Ive posted on this website a few times, so I’m used to the nature of these stories. Unfortuently yourhbeyondblue seems like the only source I trust.
Ive been diagnosed with depression for a while, and there has be
Even just one person who I could go to. She was amazing to me. I trusted her till death, even more than I trusted my own family. It was like a close bond we shared, that would never be broken.
But now, it seems like it has.
My story goes back to late December, she and I were talking and she mentioned about having a 19th party and she invited me. Of course I got excited and got her a bday present. When I told her that I did, she mentioned to me that her mother has told her that she could only have a few people over, so she told me she uninvited all the guys, and told me she was just having girls over. Of course I got a little upset, but as I trusted her, I went along with it.
As time went, she started becoming distant with me. She would ignore my messages and phone calls at times. And as she did it, I became more suspicious of her reason. And started suspecting that she was lying to me.
Which leads us to today. It’s her bday, and as I was posting my bday message on her wall, my worse fears were relised and my suspicious confirmed. I saw bday messages from other guys telling her that they see her at her party.
I’m heartbroken. The only person I trusted in this world lied to me and completely broke my heart.
I feel like I’ve lost my only friend in the world.
I’ve always told myself, if I lost her, I have no reason to live.
Well, I defiently don’t want to live now 
I feel like, it’s over.
Anonymous
January 27, 2012
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Hey Anon.
Yes that is a big blow.
I would suggest telling her how much her lie hurt you and ask her why she couldnt be upfront with you on all of this.
If you are even braver you might ask her what is it about yourself that she couldnt muster the courage to speak to you about it all…
there are always learnings from this sort of heartbreak. You can see that right now as you are racked with strong feelings. they will become apparent later.
Best you not identify with these feelings…they are not all of you.I cant tell you are identifying with the feelings as you are not going to your head as a fantasy to end it all…these are just young parts of ourselves that are always difficult to deal with.
The best way forward is to talk to someone Anon. A professional can give you perspective to find yourself again.
I wish you all the best
John
Hi Guys
I mean this is not easy to cope with, this is very difficult for me. I’ve yet to leave my bedroom since i found out (over 24 hours) and i have been breaking down on my bed crying my eyes out. I’m at a time where i need all of my friends, but whats good if they keep lying to me all the time?
I would try the hotline, but i cant when my parents at home, they don’t believe i need help.
If anyone else has any advice, please help, i need it, and it would mean a lot of someone has actually read this
John
I’m gonna try to talk to her bout this. I’m not gonna give up, till I get answers!
Hey Anon
good for you… when you do, try and let her have her space. You gotta know that you are going to be very angry at first (even fearful too of your own anger). Try not to react that way Anon. But it is very important you tell her what she did made you feel inside. Be as honest as you can. Dont react if you can help it.Dont act out those feelings…your honesty will win through.
wishing you well Anon
Best
John
Hey John
Havn’t spoken to her yet, but there’s another problem that has aroused.
Im getting this disturbing thoughts in my mind about strangling her and choking her to death. Which is scaring me, cause this is my so called best friend we’re talking bout. I woke up today with a nightmare, and whats scary, is that it excites me someone imagining it. This is not me, this is not me at all, and i’m scared here.
My psychologist is on Holiday in Hawaii, and i’ve got no one to talk to, on Facebook, i even asked for hotlines that i can go to, cause right now i’m feeling like a wreck, im getting into arguments, which is actually just misunderstandings, Im having death thoughts everyday, and family is not helping. I’m breaking down everyday, and its annoying people.
This isn’t me….
Hi there anonymous,
Sounds like the thoughts that you are having are really disturbing. There are numbers on the get help section of the website that you can utilise to call life line or kids help line so that you can chat this through. We’d recommend doing this as talking to people can help. Sometimes people get bizarre thoughts due to stress or due to other reasons. It’s really important to get yourself assessed. So call the no’s for some immediate support but don’t forget to get some help from your GP (whilst your psychologist is away).
take care
Youth Beyondblue Team
Hi YBB team
I decided to take the first step, I decided to ring the kids helpline and by god it made me feel so better. I spent an whole hour talking ro them, and they came up with a few suggestions, not only to this, but to serveral other of my problems too.
I regret not calling to them sooner
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Anonymous we are sorry that you have been deceived and let down by your best friend. It sounds as though you feel closer to her than anyone and this make the disappointment so much harder. There is a risk when you rely on another person for the majority of your happiness.
Time will lessen the pain that you are feeling now. Please keep reaching out and talking. You might find it helpful to have a chat to the counsellors at Lifeline (13 11 14) or Kids Helpline (1800 55 1800) to get some extra support whilst things feel so very difficult. Take care of yourself and come back here as often as you need to.
Youth Beyondblue Team.