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Scared of going to hospital and dying
My name is Sarah and I am 22 years old. For the past 6 months I have had an absolute fear of dying or getting sick (brain tumor, stroke) etc.
It is on my mind pretty much everyday,
I used to suffer from panic attacks, but I learnt how to control them…until yesterday.
I got a tension head ache and started panicking at work (nausea, tingling sensation, dizziness), thinking I was going to die or have to be admitted into hospital and where I would have another panic attack and everyone would be just looking at me.
This was awful, as I thought I had overcome them.
I have so many amazing things going on in my life at the moment & I don’t understand why I am thinking like this…I just want to be able to live my life!
Just wondering if anyone else has been through this or similar and how you cope or overcame these silly thoughts!
Thank you!
Sarah
Sarah
January 17, 2012
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Mia offers great insight Sarah, listen carefully to it.It is not different to your situation at all.
Your fear of death is quite common.Apart from the obvious “we all dont want to die” it is happening in you on a regular way. What is happening is this….there are feelings in you that are quite chaotic and your psyche has created this object fantasy in order to better contain this chaos.It is usually a sign or symbol that change is on its way for you.
The key for you is not to identify with the fantasy or feelings that are coming up.Have you read much about creation myths ? well they appear in a lot of mythology and represent basically out of chaos comes order etc
To speed up the order process for you it is well advised you speak to someone like Mia suggests. These are early feelings you are re-experiencing. Best you find out what this is all about Sarah.You are not going to die.
Talk to a professional.
We wish you well
all the best
John
Thank you Mia & John for posting!
I have been seeing someone for awhile now, but only a Psychologist, maybe I should go and see a clinical psychologist insted.
I am still struggiling with this stupid fear…and I am so very ready for it to stop!
I am going to find help and get my life back on track…I have so many things to look forward to!
Thank you both once again.
Sarah
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Hi Sarah,
I’m 21 and last year, 2011 was the toughest year of my life so far. I started experiencing Panic & Anxiety Attacks for the first time in my life- and I happened to be overseas at the time.
The first 3 attacks I had were the scariest moments of my life- I submitted myself into Emergency each night for 3 nights in a row because i was so convinced that there was something wrong with me and that i was going to die. I would get the shakes, scary high levels of heart rates pounding, get really hot, insainly overpowering feelings of anxiousness and would end up hyperventilating- but i’d never pass out.
I went to a clinical psychologist who taught me the nature of anxiety and who really helped me to understand how it was affecting and making me think. Being able to understand it has really helped me as well as my doctor sent me to get an ECG for my heart to get the all clear, as well as other sicknesses i’m paranoid that i’m going to get. And then because i’m paranoid I would see another doctor to make sure the previous doctor didn’t miss anything. haha. These are silly things but the whole getting tests things put my mind at ease.
You’re totally not alone- and thats why i love this website! I had no idea how many others were going through the same thing. I respect you for being real to the beyond blue community! But yeah- I’d recommend getting seeing someone- i looked up reccomended ones in my area on this website and they have gotten me on track. I still have little relapses and it’s really frustrating but i have never had attacks as bad as my first few…
All the best- and remember you’re not alone!