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I don’t know what to think anymore or whats right or whats wrong. I get told all the time that i look sad and get asked why i don’t envolve myself with people anymore or get out and meet new people. I feel as though i have lost all hope and am so confused and don’t know what to do anymore. I work most weekends and go to school full time 5 days a week and do homework all the time i bottle myself up in side and the littlest things can make me explode and just cry out in tears for no reason and get real upset.
Than i don’t eat most the time because i don’t want to get fat i used to be really big in grade 6 and at the end of grade 7 i couldn’t handle it any more seeing all these other girls who i wish i could look like and have all the guys talking to them. So i try and limint my food intake but when i feel sad or down i will just eat and till i feel better and i hate it but i don’t know what to do.I get so stressed over school work because im not that good and i don’t want to fail year 11 and or year 12 than having to repert year 13 im not good at anything.
How can you tell if i am or not having depression systoms. or am i just going through ruff times and it is all just stressed causing this. but i want to know. I find it easy to talk to people about my problems but noone wants to listen to me or they do but than they just start talking and joing in someone elses conversation like they don’t care about what im telling them. If somone wants to talk and reply that would be a good help.
Sarah
September 3, 2010
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Heeeey,
I feel the same way about my life, i have now been feeling worthless and depressed since the death of my pop.
I have been through self harm and attempts of suicide, ive tried so hard to get over it all but the feeling wont go away.
I find myself crying and questioning myself why i bother living.
I get in horribley depressed moods when im out having fun with friends or with my boyfriend and i know its not right, i really want this to stop i know i need how but how do i get over this?
It would be nice to talk to somebody going through the same.
Sarah xx
hi Sarah,
i went through the exact same feelings as you of self worthlessness and being bigger than other girls and jealous of them. there is hope and keep struggling on to try and find it. youre not alone in this, i know you probably think you are but others have the same feelings.have you got any family or a gp or are you seeing a psychologist, they can really help when you ar able to to talk about youre feelings. if you cant find anyone i am here to talk if you need advice or support.
take care of yourself and i do care about what youre going through.
Gabby
Thank you for all the advice Alex, Sarah and Gabby. It was nice to hear that there are people that feel the same way as i do. It is hard for me being such a quiet and shy person to ask for help and i normally don’t i always am siting in the corner watching every one else.
My family aren’t that easy to talk to and i really don’t feel comfortable talking to them anyway and i don’t have anyone else part form my boyfriend who is so caring and thoughtful to me but i hate troubling him and don’t want him to be concerned.
Thank you for the offers to talk to uses Gabby and Sarah about how i feel and i don’t know who or where else to go and talk to and it would be nice to talk to you you seem to understand what im going through when no one else does. However we ae not able to share contact details on this site. Perhaps you could reply here again.
Sarah
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Hi Sarah,
Good on you for asking for help on this site. It sounds like you are having a bit of a difficult time at the moment.
The only way you can tell if you have depression is to see a doctor. There are some self help tests (they are not completely reliable though). There is one on this site:
http://www.youthbeyondblue.com/depression-and-anxiety/depression-checklist/
Another good one is on the black dog institute website at http://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/public/depression/howtotell/selftesting.cfm
This is also a good site to read up on.
If you decide to take the next step is there an adult like a parent or teacher of school counsellor you can talk to?
Otherwise I think it would be a good idea to see a GP or go to a headspace centre http://www.headspace.org.au/home/headspace-sites/ if there is one near you.
I hope things get better for you